"hello Wakey wakey" he says and leaves laughing. I oddly feel safe when hassan is home, but as soon as he leaves I feel lost and insecure.
I stand munching a apple in the kitchen when henna walks in
"Is that all you do all day long, just eat and eat" she says
"I'm eating for two now remember". I smile nervously
"Yeah whatever, just calm down this food cost money, which if you remember doesn't grow on trees, oops I forgot people back home don't really care do they" taunts henna.
She's done it again, drained my emotions, I walk into the garden with the half eaten apple.
I pause and look at the Apple with her words swirling in my mind, I sit on the chair and break down into tears.
What am I supposed to do, I have to feed my baby, the apple falls on the floor and is dirty now.
I look across pams garden to see if she is there, but no she isn't.
I remember my mama and break down again
"Oye are you crying again"
I look up its Pam, I stand up immediately like I've seen my mama calling me and walk quickly towards her. She hugs me tight and i feel so much comfort.
"Oh Pam I don't know what to do, I should be happy that I'm pregnant but my circumstances are making me sad. ...
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